I LOVE MY FAMILY AND THE GOSPEL

Today was the last sunday before i left. i woke up and went to go say goodbye to my nephew. the little guy is a hand full. but is so smart and funny. i love him as if he was my own son. maybe not quite as much but i love him a ton. i was taking him to his dads house. asking him what he thought about church. he did not know who heavenly father was. he understood we should love jesus. he knew who god was. but simple concepts LDS children know. it can be heart breaking to know someone you love who is young and innocent doens't know. usually i was upset by it. but i talked to him. i told him that we should grow up strong and smart. thats God's plan for us. we should learn about our selves and heavenly father. the more we know about those two things we can find happiness. i realized a huge blessing in my life. if i can teach the people in Guatemala as if i was teaching it to a child. and help them understand then i could be a great teacher. that is so often true in our lives. when things are hard they prepare you for the future. i told my nephew that today was a special sunday cause we had to think of heavenly father and our own dads. so he got excited and was saying "yes james it is special we need to get my dad a card. we need to stop at the grocery store." this little 5 year old told me how to get to the grocery store. he went inside and picked out a card. although his mom and dad are not on best terms and divorced. what a wonderful opportunity to show christ like love. so he got his dad a card. and such love was felt by anyone who can hear it.

so i left him and i had to fight back tears. not just for him but because of what the savior has done for us all. i love my savior so much. i love it when people convey their love for family and god through song. this song is for Aiden. i'll miss him so much.


i love music. i realized how you often can make awesome amazing music the more you understand yourself and culture. i noticed watching this movie and video of this band called Sigur ros. its truly beautiful music.

their music fits the wonderful landscapes of their home Iceland. i hear it and i can see where they get their motivation and feelings through their music. you can see their creativity and love flowing from voice and instruments. music is a thoughtful prayer to heavenly father. so this goes back to understanding and learning about ones self. learning about life, where we come from, and where we will go. the more we know about ourselves and about heavenly father the happier we will be. music is one way to show it. prayer is another. teaching is what i am attempting to do. hopefully i can convey the spirit to others. only hours away and i'll be a full time missionary.
thank you to my family. for all the kind words that were shared. thank you to the laughs and smiles. i will miss you.